Busy Week

Okay, so this week have been O-kay. it was not so bad. Handball was quite good. I am too lazy to get into details. so... Okay fine.. i dont have anything much to talk about. so i will talk bout handball.. ohwell.

On Monday, I reached school at 7.(6.49 to be a little more precise) I saw yee theng as the ONLY handball player that was earlier than me. Then I went to class to do stuff. There was NOBODY at class. I was the earliest. Then, Esther came. Okay, skip unimportant details. Then I went down just to see whether anymore other handball players were at school already or not. Saw Joey on the way down so was quite relieved that handball competition was not postponed. Then, saw wee kii in uniform. Was a little surprised. I did not bring my uniform that day. Then i saw niki and yen jin in uniform too.. i freaked out a little. But then they changed later.. Okay okay, sorry for all those boring details. Then we got our food and started going to the place where we are going for handball. We won two games and then we went home. It was quite tiring. (starting to skip details)

On Tuesday, I went to school as usual. Nothing much happened for today. The handball ppl were told that we have to skip sports rehearsal tomorrow. which was a good, very good news to me. But for gwen and yen jin, they would have to find a replacement for their 400 m race.

On Wednesday, I reached school at 7.05. then after i was walking halfway to the school from lrt there, joey came. she walked behind me. There was only hang yu (hang yu was there in school since 6.30!!), wei jun, and a few more guys. then everyone came. We played handball at school for a while. Girls vs Guys. then the bus came. we went to cochrane. We won the game. which was quarter finals. We waited for quite long as the semi finals schedule was SUPPOSED to be on that day. Mr Pandian talked to us a lot about the handball stuff. Then later he was told that semifinals was postponed to the next day. it was so frustrating. Dhivya, Joey and a few more people even eat to gain some energy. But it was all wasted just like that.

Then on Thursday, we went for the semi finals. After the tough game with BBS, which we lost, we went to Mc Donalds, by bus. Then we went home... oops went back to school and lunch not even yet start. Bad news for me but good news for the others. i have to go for my duty. Then went for classes and then went home.

Nothing much happened today. Was really really tired at school today. Wanna sleep now.. Gdnight everyone...

EMO post

The Me right now.

I thought I had control. My life, my world held in my ever shaking hands. But it's disappeared and replaced by a black hole thats sucking the life from me. Fate has doomed me to this. To this disease inside. To this painful heartache. The clock's ticking away my life, color fading from my eyes as tears that seem to real roll down my cheeks. Why did it happen this way? Why??

I wish I could have stopped it. Stopped this. Held time still for a matter of seconds because this is breaking me. Killing me inside. How am I suppose to survive? I feel like I've lost a part of me somewhere in the dark. Where do you go from here? Where do you start when you know the end is near? Because this pain, this pain has never felt so real.

Do I really deserve this? Did I ever?...

How do you stop the fountain of heartache once the flood gate has been opened? How to stop falling when in you're in mid-flight? How? Oh please tell me how...

The tears are crashing all around me. My pain in clear view for the world to see. No one knows why, who did this to me. I won't tell. I'll whisper it every so quietly in my heart. Your name sounding from these lips, a curse. The disease is getting worse, breaking me down ever so more. The walls have crumbled into rubbish and I'm bleeding. Bleeding onto the concrete for everyone to see. They ask who did this to me. But I won't answer. I won't tell. All I can do is whisper it ever so quietly in my heart.

I'm losing the battle I've been fighting all my life. I'm ever so slightly dying in front of my family. The pain is to real, and it hurts so much. The end of my story has come. The pen finally fallen from my hands. The echo of my screams, languish striking hard and brutally. A storm inside myself, twisted ever so bitterly and wiping away memories. Memories of what use to be..

My world of light and hope has shrunkened and transformed before my very blind eyes. Pain and darkness is all that is left. The light has been wiped from existence. Hope is nowhere to be found inside myself. Where do I go from here? Where do I go when I know this is the end? The very end I've known would come all along..

I wish I could hold time for a matter of seconds, so that maybe things would be different. But I can't change what is meant to be. I can't change this unfortunate fate. I wish I could. I wish could forget and just live. Just breathe in the air I seem to be lacking because I feel like I am suffocating. I wish my heart would beat instead of break with every tick of time, with ill-conceived measure. I wished for so much more..But it will never come. Never...

For this is the end dear loved ones. The end of what use to be. What couldn't be. And what never would be. This is the end of me.

hi. i just realize that my posts are so short 'cause when i see some other blogs, their shortest post are so long. at least longer than mine.. i was looking through blogs these few days, so, sorry for not updating.. i really don't know how other bloggers find so much time in posting such long posts.. i feel so uncool. coz my blog shows it.

anyways....

tomorrow is the handball competition. i hope it will not be postponed this time. oh yeah, i did not tell you guys, the ACTUAL handball was supposedly to be on the 24th of March. but it was postponed. To tomorrow. Surprisingly, i m not feeling nervous.. (yet?) Tomorrow would be the day the Aussie's from sacred heart coming to our school. And I would have to miss the welcoming ceremony. I am sure that there would be lots of nice performance by both the Wesleyans and the Australians.. Damn.. i wished the handball was not postponed at the first place, but then, we would not know the 'culture' or 'art' of handball. Okay, let me use simple english, if the handball was not postponed at the first place, then we would lose badly. I think that is simple enough, isn't it? Most of the government schools having exam tomorrow. Maybe i m exaggerating a little.. So hopefully it will not be postponed.

Okay, lets make it clearer.

One side of me:
I hope handball would be postponed cause i wanna watch the welcoming ceremony of the aussies..

Another side of me:
I hope handball would not be postponed cause... i dunno what.. as long as i don't want handball to be postponed..

Tomorrow would be the busy day for both the Handball Team and Wesleyans.

Hopefully everything would go on as expected. I think this post is quite long... Isn't it??



Bye,

Yu Yin

UPDATED

Hey, ppl! im alive. many ppl scolded me for not updating my blog. mayb not scold la but complain??
i duno the right word anyways.. heh. im updating. now.

so this week has been a busy week.
i'll juz update everyone.

Monday 7th
Nothing much happened. normal stuff. sports practice, school, break, school, lunch, school, meeting. no handball practice for today.

Tuesday 8th
there was handball practice today. wait, i forgotten. i dont think there was. or was it last week. haiz short term memory loss. even Mrs peter have better memory than me. i really not sure whether got handball practice or not. i think it was raining. i think. juz ignore this day.

Wednesday 9th
yesterday, nth much happened. juz remembered that i had to march for the sports practice which was till 9.30 that day. oh, now i remembered.

*paused*

Tuesday 8th
there was handball practice today. a lot of ppl got hurt. gwen got a bruise (or bruises). heard that wei shan and dhivya got hurt too. i didnt played well enough.

*play*

Wednesday 9th
...sports practice which was till 9.30 that day. it was quite tiring. but still ok la. then normal la, school, break, school, lunch, school... then handball practice. i was quite moody (known as 'unsemangated' by joey and 'bu suang' by dhivya). i have no idea why. then later, at about 5, almost everyone went home. except, gwen, dhiv, ain, niki, prita(i think, short term memory loss prob again). then later zhu chung, wee cherng, zhiyang, and a few more joined. it was quite fun. but i was still with my moody thing.

Thursday 10th- today
Sports practice was fun today, we were divided into teams, i was with ming zhi, hang yu and prthiv. hang yu was kind of the 'leader'. he said lame stuff but it was fun. first we warm up n walk. which was stupid, then we did some serious stuff la, pass baton, jogging, sprinting, and etc etc. it was very tiring, dont believe ask mingzhi. i was the slowest runner in the team. haha.. then today got handball. i m not improving. but i think i found a good tactic to b a good goalie. wanna noe?? hmmph!! dun wanna tell u.. hehehehe.. i found out this tactic when i was practising goalkeeping and niki, ain, and evelyn(u-18 handball) was shooting. i din really try out this tactic, will try it out on saturday, our next practice.

thats all for now. cya.. i dunno when my next update, hope u guys will be patient. patience is a virtue. hahah..

bye...


yuyin xp



p/s: my longest post so far

PROJECTS!!!

hi again. its been quite long since i blog. - i think.

there's like me and 3 fricking projects surrounding me.

i guess most of u noe which projects,

obviously,
1. KGT i hate KGT
2. Sej project its very frustrating
3. English project its due end of APRIL.. gosh!!

i think its time to get back to my projects..

stupid projects.

im stuck with them.

till may or july..

aih...